Part 1
Its being quite a while and I am still at the same place where I started. Well I am not stalking about anything related to my work or some goals but something personal that drives me motivated and happy here in office. I came across a girl few days back or I should say a month back and I really find her interesting and charming. And what I was talking above is that I want to know her and stand as a friend for her in time of needs, but still no success. Actually she is working in a different project which by any chance not related to my applications. It happens with me all the time so I won’t curse my fate, but things would have been different if she would have been in our team and I could have charmed her. To add to worse she is sitting far from my place and no way can I look her anytime. For that I need to go for a break and came back close to her place so that I can make feel my presence. I also don’t know if she have ever noticed me or not, but I want to be hopeful from my side and will try to continue this. No other feelings as such for her as I am very clear on my thoughts and really want to make her my friend. The reason for that is I feel very lonely in my office and there is no one special whom I can go along and can talk without any topic. Also not that I cant find anyone special or stare some more good girls, that I do but that good feeling to make friend to get to know that person is not. I used to have some very good friends before but all left and now it’s difficult to find someone matching your thoughts and creativity. Our mind works in a weird manner and so as our Heart, its not always attracted to some white face or slim physique, but also the behavior and grace on a persons face. I think I too look good and graceful to people but sometimes I feel they get a wrong impression and thinks in a negative manner. I am a kind of person that enjoys life and try to keep others happy whether it’s in office or at home. I feel if you can learn to be happy atleast in front of others then people will like you. So I was mentioning why I got attracted to that girl, the simple reason is because I saw a grace and charm on her face. Her beautiful smile and the sharp eyes by which she looks is something I don’t want to miss. Also I saw the creative aspect of her that impressed me even further. But I am still hunting how can I start friendship with her? How can I make her convince that I am a nice guy that knows the value of friendship? How can I bring myself noticed in front of her? All these are unanswered questions as of now, but I hope to get answers to all these very soon. I used to talk about this to my colleagues here and they joke on me with due respect for me. But the only reason for the talk that it makes me feel happy and gives me more confident that one day she will be my friend and I will be drinking coffee with her. Also everyday coming to office early so that I can see her most of the time and try to synchronize my coffee and canteen breaks with her. I believe she would have noticed me and if yes then I am glad and if not then no problem one day she will, I am very hopeful and optimistic. The reason for my shying and not approaching her is because I am like that, I prefer to stay and wait rather than spoil my reputation, because if I do so then the small happiness I am getting I will be deprived with that also. So let’s see how it goes and will continue writing this, wish me luck and hope the next write-up is about the coffee conversation with her.
Part 2
It’s more that 10 days now and I haven’t got any response to my first note? So many questions are coming to my mind. The first threatening question is did she read my note or not? If not then where it has gone? Is that put in bin by the cleaning people? If that is true then definitely my fate is bad, very bad. These people never clean my desk for even a small paper like bus ticket, but for her desk they have removed one note. But the next thought coming to my mind is that if she has read that note then what might be her next reaction? Confused? Anger? Smile with confusion? Or No reaction. Not sure so many things are coming to my mind and it keeps me hunting for a clue. Whenever I see her I get no response. Then the basic question comes is that how can she know who wrote this? I don’t know her and she don’t know me so how can she guess that it might be the note from me? Well I guess she is very clever and by seeing I all day passing by couple of times and seeing her, she would have guessed it. But if she didn’t then what? How can I make feel the presence? Do I have to drop a new note with my name? Bad Idea ;)
Also on the positive side what I feel that whatever I wrote is clear and pure and I want to make her my friend. Well to me this is the best way to send a request for a friend. She is creative I know that and guess she like the idea. Or maybe that she is also feeling shy to come up and talk to me? Well may be the case but atleast she can come and start the conversation asking about the note. Also by her looks and confidence, she doesn’t look to me as shy. Even if she doesn’t want me as a friend then atleast I will be happy for the note I wrote that for. Well so many questions in mind but who can answer? Yes I know she can only answer but how? How can I get my first introduction with her? Also one of her friend I can say is in my project team, but she is also very sweet and I am still not in good books for her. Also it’s not a great idea to approach like that in my personal view. So let’s keep her out and also I will try to be friend of her. So what’s my next action plan? Still trying to figure that out. I just hope that she know me atleast so that I can help her in any situation. Till now I have proved to be a very good friend for all those close to me and the same thing I will offer her. The coffee with her right now seems much far away and I guess if this continues then I have to write few more disappointing notes before I write about the coffee conversation. God please help me on my mission
Chalo then see you until the next note…Part 3
It’s a sad moment for me but I am ending this story today. When I started my note I mentioned to write about the coffee conversation with her. But the way things are going its looking that she is not interested to have friendship with me. May be I am not good enough to be in her circle of friends. I guess my staring to her and making her feel that I am passing comments (though I am not) thought her that I am not a good guy. I don’t know but I feel because she is not in my project I am not able to make her as my friend. I hope that she doesn’t have attitude in her because if that’s the case then I will be sad that I made a wrong choice. But if she doesn’t want me as her friend then fine. So I am sorry about the promise for a coffee conversation. I am sad as my charm didn’t work on her and I need to rework on my approach to persons. I try to be good to people but most of the times people take it otherwise. So its time to say Good bye to her and let’s see if there is any new beginning to this. Thanks to my friends who have helped me to get information about her and notified me about her presence in office and canteen. I know its good to have a bunch of good friends but you miss someone in the group always and she might be the one of those. I hope she will remain happy in her group and with her friends. All the Best, Take Care All
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